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i just want to stay in all day

watching movies on my laptop

with strawberries and tarts by the side

with all my stuffed toys kicked to the ground

& you next to me

heeeeee

:)

thick & thin, till death do us 'part

sickness & health, for better or for worse

xx

isnt it easier if we could take it out & leave it somewhere else

A picture began circulating in November. It should be “The Picture of the Year,”… or perhaps, “Picture of the Decade.” It won’t be. In fact, unless you obtained a copy of the U.S. paper which published it, you probably would never have seen it.

The picture is that of a 21-week-old unborn baby named Samuel Alexander Armas, who is being operated on by surgeon named Joseph Bruner. The baby was diagnosed with spina bifida and would not survive if removed from his mother’s womb. Little Samuel’s mother, Julie Armas, is an obstetrics nurse in Atlanta. She knew of Dr. Bruner’s remarkable surgical procedure. Practicing at Vanderbilt University Medical Center in Nashville, he performs these special operations while the baby is still in the womb.

During the procedure, the doctor removes the uterus via C-section and makes a small incision to operate on the baby. As Dr. Bruner completed the surgery on Samuel, the little guy reached his tiny, but fully developed hand through the incision and firmly grasped the surgeon’s finger. Dr. Bruner was reported as saying that when his finger was grasped, it was the most emotional moment of his life, and that for an instant during the procedure he was just frozen, totally immobile.

The photograph captures this amazing event with perfect clarity. The editors titled the picture, “Hand of Hope.” The text explaining the picture begins, “The tiny hand of 21-week-old fetus Samuel Alexander Armas emerges from the mother’s uterus to grasp the finger of Dr. Joseph Bruner as if thanking the doctor for the gift of life.”

Little Samuel’s mother said they “wept for days” when they saw the picture. She said, “The photo reminds us pregnancy isn’t about disability or an illness, it’s about a little person.” Samuel was born in perfect health, the operation 100 percent successful. Now see the actual picture, and it is awesome…incredible….and hey, pass it on! The world needs to see this one.

OBSOLETE - Nick Gentry from Nick Gentry on Vimeo.

"Work is anything that you are compelled to do. By its very nature, it is undesirable. Work kills. The Japanese have a term “Karoshi”, which means death from overwork. That’s the most dramatic form of how work can kill. But it can also kill you in more subtle ways. If you work, then day by day, bit by bit, your soul is chipped away, disintegrating until there’s nothing left. A rock has been ground into sand and dust."

but i love what im doing, i work almost 20 hours a day (including school) so i sleep less than most people but i love what im doing. have i mentioned that already?

so, im not a workaholic. im not crazy. stop saying im working too hard to take a break.. im not. im simply living my dream, living my life

i have datelines to meet.. yes. i have projects to complete.. yes. but i also have goals to reach. im getting there, somehow, somewhere.. its slow, but i've started

i do what i want, i do what i love.

i will do it until i drop dead or break down

xx

n this week’s MH weekly, they list 4 ways to tell if you’ve found “A Keeper”:

1. How Similar Are You? Dating your female clone wears thin, a new study from the University of Geneva found. Men who date women with “ideal” qualities are more likely to stay with them than those who date people similar to themselves, says lead author Marcel Zetner, Ph.D.

The lesson? Approach women who embody your ideal characteristics – physically, emotionally, and mentally. The payoff could outweigh the potential rejection.

2. Are Your Conversations One-Sided? “Telling you every detail about her life or grilling you about yours won’t necessarily bring you closer,” says John Badalament, Ed.M., a relationship coach. “The relationship can become old quickly,” agrees Terry Real, author of The New Rules of Marriage.

Email can help you suss out a match; If she can convey opinions and feelings in writing, she’s open and comfortable with you. The more insightful her questions, the better the potential.

3. Where Do You Go On Your Dates? “Couples who party hard tend to hit it off early but have a short shelf life,” says Real. Quiet nights can curb conversation and become a rut. Seek out challenges by dragging her to work functions to meet your colleagues or asking her to take rock-climbing lessons. How well do you ad-lib as a team without a script?

4. Does She Ever Get Angry With You? “Women who fight it out tend to make better partners than those who don’t,” says Ian Kerner, Ph.D., author of D.S.I.: Date Scene Investigation. New studies confirm that avoiding arguments results in “out-of-control” emotions and long-term anger, especially in women. Call her out; it’s better than her keeping it bottled up.

i miss having him around

& every night i shiver in bed even when its not raining

"The truth that many people never understand, until it is too late,
is that the more that you try to avoid suffering, the more you suffer,
because smaller and more insignificant things begin to torture you in proportion to your fear of being hurt."

-Thomas Merton

YEHHHHH ITS THE WEEKEND.

oOoOo eating warm instant cereal at 4:40 in the morning gives me energy to start on my work. just enough to last me for a good 2 hours. just work & nothing else

its okay to be selfish for your own happiness right?

think i played it too far

overly possesive girlfriend symptom#1

haaaaahahaha

ps: i know he types like a GiRrLszz

xx

What i really want to eat tonight, on a cool evening with plenty of work to complete.

i binge when im stressed

but so? i have 8 months to diet wahahah

good side about not seeing your boyfriend for a couple of months - get to lose control & regain your composure before he returns

i really want to have herbal soup too

i love soups! hehe

xx

sigh

xx

waiting for kerri to come over

hahahahahha see how single my eyelids are.

cant wait for them to find their counter part so they'll get attached & tadaa!! double eyelids heeeehehehehe im just being lame cuz im so unmotivated to do any schoolwork :|

laaaalalalaleeelallala

:p

sundance sundance sundance sundance sundance

Pat: What am I supposed to do while you're at school?

Sponge: I dont know. What do you normally do?

Pat: Wait for you to get back

naaaawwwwwwhhhh (L)

have a lovely sunday everyone!!!

i'll make my last day of the weekend productive :)

kisses xx

who would knew surviving a long distance relationship would be such a feat :/

im so jealous of couples heading to the theatres for midnight movies

so jealous of couples going for night spins

so jealous of couples who would talk on the phone all night

so jealous of couples walking hand in hand down the streets

so jealous of couples making out at the corner

& im so jealous of my classmates who managed to do at least a considerable fraction of their work haha im such a loser. im so lazy!!!!!!!!!!!!

life sucks take drugs

If gays are heavily despised/ frowned upon by Christianity, why did God make them so hot?

& its honestly very attractive (turning on) to see gays exchanging affection

haaaaahahhah ok yay ziyangs online. hes beginning to display some gay tendencies. will prove to you guys later :D

Good morning Saturday (:

im happy, kinda..

think the weekend will be amazing <:

xx

i accidentally sipped the most foul tasting drink ever

its unbelievable.

ugh

so much for new year new happenings

T.T

OH YEH OH YEH

so its a brand new year, with new plans.

i was blog hopping & realized i never did make any sort of resolutions

so,, heres a list:

x eat well

x work as hard as i can

x be less cautious & allow myself to be more emotionally dependent on friends who really care

x make at least 5 new friends

x be more confident

x walk my dogs at least once in two months (waaaahhahahha)

x be more available for my family

x be a great friend

x & last but not least, give love a shot

I never really allowed myself to fall in love head over heels over someone before..

i dont know why but the thought of loving someone (as true to the phrase) scares me. I love my dogs i love my family etc etc.. everyone claims they love their (fill in the blanks) but really, only a handful know how to love & care for someone.

Talking all the time about how you would die if he wasn't in your life.. about how your world will come crushing down when you lose your family.. etc.. yes, the value you hold for the subject in question may tantamount to your life but is that really the only evidence you can give to prove your love?

Giving love to someone outside my family has always been hard... who can you really trust? putting your heart, your dignity, your soul, your time to a certain someone who may not even be THE ONE. friends encourage you to "try" but deep down i know its only going to end. so why shower the imminent disaster with flowers & smiles just to bestow yourself with temporal bliss?

I dont know. see what i mean? i need to give love a shot this coming year

i also need to read more books hahaha

okay shower time!

peace out everyone

xx

II weeks

heheheheheh. took this from his facebook..

its on the day he left for manchester

i dont know if its a good thing to know the passwords to your boyfriends social networking site account/ hotmail/ msn etc.. because you might get curious in the beginning but after a while, it becomes a habit.

people often mistaken this act as stalking or spying on him but really...... seriously...............

OF COURSE LAHHHHHHHHH hahahahahahhahahahahaha :>

no im kidding, theres really not much to spy on considering my boyfriend is a classic IT noob. yay me.. its a blessing in disguise :D

okay i gotta go for lunch with the girls.

ps: school was pretty fun today. we sat down & did thorough observations of different things with interesting textures. quite excited to know what our final project requires of us :p

thats nevin.. who intends to further law in UK

zhi hao & kanta (never spoken to them before LOL)

seeyaaa

xx

"the glory of friendship is not the outstretched hand, not the kindly smile, nor the joy of companionship; it is the inspiration that comes to one when you discover that someone else believes in you and is willing to trust you with a friendship"

- Ralph Waldo Emerson

heheheh just decided to do this WAAAAAHAHAHHA.

happy friendship day everyday!

xx

im so mooody

think my periods coming or something. my appetite has increased too T.T which is bad because i thought i could control but to no avail, obviously.

for about 7 weeks, you will be hearing a lot from me, incessantly complaining about school work. One should be smart enough to start working but i feel soo uninspired to do anything... nothing interests me now. everything seems like an obligation.. like a dateline to meet. it no longer feels like theres an element of fun :(

okay. like i said, im just moody & im taking off my tagboard due to obvious reasons hahahaha. okay tmr is a thursday cant wait to see my girlfries.

kinda looking forward to the weekend. cuz that means one week has passed = one week closer to august haaaaaaaaaahaha corny

seeya

skyping with the toothead heeheheh sorry for the quality.

so anyway school started & theres homework already.. kinda good that ziyang is out of town wahahahha

okay anyway saw this on facebook HAHAHAAH its hilarious LOL

its so funny how this asian dude who looks like Jon sounds like a black chick

CALM YO TITS

AHHHHHH

SKUL STARTS TMR

I AM DREAAAAADING ITTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT

fuckkkkkkkkeeeet

Do you know what really sucks? its to have a freeaking sore throat & an occasional runny nose, feeling warm all over with a pulsating headache & to add the cherry on the little cupcake, being jet lagged.

I cant sleep because i rested from 10am to 6pm yesterday local time. & i thought it was a pretty good timing that i woke up at such an unearthly hour because maybe, just maybe ziyang might be online but NUuUuUuUuUuU.

todays our official commencement of a long distance relationshit. oo did i just say relationshit lol

we are 8 hours ahead of manchester so that means.. when i wake up at.. lets say 9 in the morning? i have to wait till the day is over. literally.. only at 12 midnight that i get to talk to him. how nice right?

I honestly do not know if we can keep up with this whole thing. he's pretty optimistic but most of his friends worry about him being the one bailing on the relationship lol

oo its barely a day & i can already feel the distance

i feel single

cant wait for school to start so i'll get busy & hopefully, lessen my stress but both of our hectic schedules may also mean no time

how do people get over such pathetic mental issues?

how do people get engaged after so many years living a long distance relationship?

shall i google that? hahahahha

okay i should be done with babbling

ugh, with no phone & no one to talk to at such wee hours of the morning

i actually feel lonely

& sick

xx

i have to say, hes pretty awesome
& hes only 18.

WHAAAAAAAAA. Tttt

xx

Its DISNEYLAND!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D :D :D :D :D

We were there between Christmas & The new year

perfect timing

we were frigid. too cold. too cold.

riding rides coming down at high speeds was........ isdkgnvdslxkfncsd;xfncslkhfncskxzdnc skxznd caskdncsknxdcdsknfcdslxfn cdsklxnf jdncb vskldnxf cksxdmskbfcsdkxjfcosd

you know how you will be told time & time again to hang onto the railings? It was no problem for us. our fingers were so stiff they were automatically tightly clung around the hand bars

i swear icicles were forming when we were lunged downwards with deadly acceleration

teehee happy times!

my face so round lyka bao :(

Goodnight world :)

im going to sleep soon but these are only the tip of the ice berg (corny) because i have an estimated 1700 number of pictures

hehe

oh by the way, im so miserable. my voice has lost its lustre & sweetness :( im sure all of you will start to miss it :D

im having such a sore throat & im still phoneless so, you can contact me via facebook or just drop by my place like how my darling kerri did & leaving a note behind hahahha

ps: oo did katy perry just patronize my blog wahahahhahahahah tsk. stupid spamz

sweet dreams

xx

I AM BACK!!!!!!!!!

staytunedforsome europesextapes

hahaohuehlo :D

xx