OH YEH OH YEH

so its a brand new year, with new plans.

i was blog hopping & realized i never did make any sort of resolutions

so,, heres a list:

x eat well

x work as hard as i can

x be less cautious & allow myself to be more emotionally dependent on friends who really care

x make at least 5 new friends

x be more confident

x walk my dogs at least once in two months (waaaahhahahha)

x be more available for my family

x be a great friend

x & last but not least, give love a shot

I never really allowed myself to fall in love head over heels over someone before..

i dont know why but the thought of loving someone (as true to the phrase) scares me. I love my dogs i love my family etc etc.. everyone claims they love their (fill in the blanks) but really, only a handful know how to love & care for someone.

Talking all the time about how you would die if he wasn't in your life.. about how your world will come crushing down when you lose your family.. etc.. yes, the value you hold for the subject in question may tantamount to your life but is that really the only evidence you can give to prove your love?

Giving love to someone outside my family has always been hard... who can you really trust? putting your heart, your dignity, your soul, your time to a certain someone who may not even be THE ONE. friends encourage you to "try" but deep down i know its only going to end. so why shower the imminent disaster with flowers & smiles just to bestow yourself with temporal bliss?

I dont know. see what i mean? i need to give love a shot this coming year

i also need to read more books hahaha

okay shower time!

peace out everyone

xx