I really wish I was someone else

sometimes, I think too much I get overwhelmed by negativity & all that mind fucking shit

My life isn't a can of jelly beans you know. Im not bursting with fruity flavors & rainbow colors; I constantly fight with myself every single day and sometimes worry if i am just another "sarah" existing in this world

Sometimes I think so much I scare myself. I create vivid visuals and choose to spend my nights shivering from the tremendous stress and expectations bestowed upon me

I really am not all that

I am not who you think I am

I have so many layers even my best friends have a hard time figuring them out

Often I feel so alone & deprived of real emotions

I know there are some of you who are willing to be there for me no matter what & yes, all that cliche comforting phrases ripped off from tumblr

I am content with my life,

but that doesn't make me a happy being

Im not emo-ing

im not sad

im just saying